Small sweaty stuff

I woke today at 8:45
like yesterday
and the day before that
and my family
is quite surprised
by this
after all these years of
cultivating sadness
and chaos
the smallest things
are making the difference
I eat breakfast
I wake at the same time
and I am not cured
or perfect
or any of that bullshit
but I am
currently
on a different path
vigilant
and caring
and careful
and encouraged
and after the last two years
of losing hope
and multiple implosions
and misplaced
love
I feel light
capable
humble
grateful
and present in my life
and in my family's

2012
the year of the dragon
a year
of transformation

Lord
I am grateful
for another
chance